On my way

In New York , or rather New Jersey as I'm at Newark airport waiting for my next flight to leave. I like places like airport and train stations, such fun places to just watch the passers by! Look at them and wonder who they are and where they are going.

My body is beginning to feel a bit tired.... My time it's 9:15 pm..... And I got up at 4 am ..... Do hope that I'll get some sleep on my next flight to Costa Rica. But it so worth it, i love to travel to arrive at new places, or ones visited before, I feel so free!

I love the new technology, well, it's not that new anymore, but sitting here I have connected with my family and friends using Skype! It makes distances disappear but what I also know is the the true distances only vanish when we all really dare to open our hearts and feel what we are feeling in the moment. Right now I feel exhausted but so very blessed and grateful for my life and all that are part of it!

Happy birthday dearest Jessica! Enjoy your day together with your new friends in Brighton! I love you!

Remember be gentle with yourself!



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A new adventure

I am blessed. Tomorrow, really early in the morning, Sune will take me to the airport where a new adventure begins! This time I will be on my way to Costa Rica to participate at a week long workshop/retreat with Christian Pankhurst ( se links at the bottom of my blog)! Almost 22 hours of traveling - Umeå - Stockholm - New York - San Jose ....I will probably be both exhausted and jet- lagged but it's so worth it!

My body is filled with excitement and anticipation ..... What will this step entail? Well, so far every step in my life has taken me forward, this won't be an exception! On the contrary, I have a life changing feeling, bubbly and joyful!

Circle work is so powerful, such a joyful way to take a look at what is, both light and shadow, to be in the now, authentic, real to the bare bones! I so wish each and every single human being could experience this!

Yeah, now some sleep and then into the mystery :)
Remember, be gentle with yourself!

P.S. So proud of my Jessica - follow her if you know Swedish on
www.jessicaknecht.blogg.se


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So much Love!

Right this very moment Jessica is waiting for her luggage at Gatwick airport in London. Wow, time passes so quickly - from diapers to studies abroad!

I have to admit that I cried some mommy tears on my way back home from the airport after dropping her off! Oh yes, I will miss my best friend so much :) but am so happy that Jessa is embarking on this adventure! She's just the best! What a joy to have a daughter to love this much !






I remember when I came to England myself the first time! I was only 14 and fell in love with the way the country greeted me through a taxi drivers "hello luv how are you"! I'm looking forward to hear what Jessica's first impression will be :)

The stove is waiting :) remember be gentle with your self!




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No smoke without fire!

Smoking has been an on and off companion in my life ever since I was a teenager. More years on than off....

Many times have I questioned my own sanity in regards to this addiction, how can a quite intelligent woman like me continuously fall into this trap?

The old proverb "No smoke without fire" gives a clue, of cause there is a reason for my "insanity".....

An other proverb states "Sometimes you have to throw yourself into the fire to escape the smoke" ..... This gives me direction of action.

I have used my smoking friend as a comforter to cheer me up or calm me down or just to make the feeling of boredom and the state of inertia bearable.
..... I have quit many times and actually not missed my cigarettes at all after I've gone through the first weeks of withdrawal and agony....therefor it is even more not understandable why I time after time fall into the trap again, even after years of abstaining!

One reason I do know - it feels shameful to admit to it, but the truth is that I can't stand myself when the scale shows above my comfort zone.... This might sound like a really superficial angle, but the truth is that I feel like a stranger in my own body when the clothes in my wardrobe are to snug!
But I guess with great awareness this "problem" could be avoided.........

I'm so ready to let go of the cigarettes again, and so unwilling to go through the withdrawal..... So I keep on puffing...... A catch 22.....

So here I am waiting for the moment to throw myself into the fire to escape the smoke :) when will it arrive?

Remember, be gentle with yourself! I'm trying too!







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